Parasite. Oh, parasite.

I am quite over this.

I feel like Bipolar Disorder has
been inflicted on me, which I'm
pretty sure isn't possible. But
maybe it is.

This kid says all the right things,
then makes me feel like shit 2 days later.
And not just like "oh dude I feel like shit".
No, it's more along the lines of
"wow dude I can't believe I'm wasting
my time with this, I'm almost suicidal".

Seriously, how does one person affect
every single person that I'm closest to?
How does one person make me feel like
everyone fucking hates me?
And at the same time, make me feel like
I'm the only thing that matters to him,
that I'm the best god damn person in
the whole entire universe.


If you can give me a solid reason that's good enough,
I'd like to fucking hear it, cause it's 5 a.m. & I'm
a lethal combination of hatred, shame and worry.
If I don't get answers soon, I'm likely to explode.